MING and STRIPEY

I just watched a very meaningful Malcom in the Middle
Its Season 6 - 605 - Kitty’s Back

Do try to search for it.
In this episode, Stevie receives a Teen Courtesy Award.

i have a resolution today

i know its hard to get the pain go away
i know its impossible to pack things in a cardboard box
cos no box can hold em back
even if its made of metal

i know that i’m just being a bitch to myself
i know that everything that i tried to save
even a friendship
only leads to being ingored and blocked away

i know that it meant a lot of me
and it still does
and it can still mean a lot to me
in time to come, maybe forever
its just that i have to stop bothering anyone else
this my battle, this is my problem
i will face it myself

therefore i will not blog here about emotional thoughts anymore
i will let it out somewhere, in another blog
as for here, i’ll just be blogging simple boring things that i do each day

so MING, today, your mission is to find ways to be happy
your mission is to put things aside for now
just to share something about my past
there were a lot of incidents when i was sent to help other people
like even strangers whom i’ve never met
they prayed for someone to reach out to help them
and very coincidentally i dropped out of no where
after the incident, they told me they had prayed for help
its strange and it happened so many times

i hope that someone can drop by from no where
and help me thru this time
i can get through it.. i can!

if you wanna read my secret new blog
you can ask me for the URL

so sick
so tired
so stupid
so foolish
so idiotic
so irritating
so brutal
so nasty

Happy Labour Day, everybody
i woke up at 8am this morning
Ran out of cigarettes
So i went across the street to buy
Then smoked at the basketball court
then decided to play with these 5 kids
I think i played quite alright

Still couldn’t overcome a very sian feeling
At the current moment, now at 10:37am
I dun feel the wound bleeding
But i dunno when the feeling will return

Whats everyone doing today?
Since its a public holiday
I got nothing to do today
No one to go out with
If you are the same, do ask me out

stupid MING,

u wan to bleed till there’s no more blood left?

what did i do/say wrong again?

I’m feeling really down now
But i dun feel like going to my "Secret Place" now

Accidentally bumped into this very very old video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D2wnba56oOM

Its a farewell video my Art Club junior made for us
when i graduated
Check it out - I appear in Scouts and Track-and-Field
And in the class photos, i’m in the third class
and the very last track-and-field photo when we do the "woosh"
that photo was legendary
CCHSm used it every year as a banner
See if you can recognise me.

I’m spending my very last semester now in TP already.
next sem i’m be in SIP
then graduate already
This is my LAST sem in TP
and i really hope my memories of TP
when i leave this school
is beautiful, not bitter

Share with everyone something crazy
i did when i was in sec.3
My best buddies like Weihan, Joshua and i forgot who, will come to my house and we’ll gather all the brooms, mops, lamps etc and blast music on my OSIRIS Radio Bag.
Performing our own lil gig in my living room (so retarded right?).

Songs like:
(check out the lyrics)

Blink182 - All the Small Things
Say it ain’t so, I will not go
turn the lights off, carry me home
keep your head still, I’ll be your thrill
the night will go on, my little windmill
Goldfinger - 99 Red Balloons
You and I in a little toy shop
Buy a bag of balloons with the money we’ve got
Set them free at the break of dawn
‘Til one by one they were gone
Third Eye Blind - Jumper
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that youve been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand
9 Days - Absolutely
Your clothes never wear as well the next day
And your hair never falls in quite the same way
But you never seem to run out of things to say
Third Eye Blind - Semi-Charmed Life
I want something else, to get me through this,
Semi-charmed kind of life,
I want something else,
I’m not listening when you say, Good-bye.

Love every each and single one of them so much.
Still reminds me of the times when i hear them.
Still could sing all the songs by heart after so many years.

Here’s one last beautiful song
that i found meaning in:

Goldfinger - Counting the Days

So here I go and there you went…again
Just another stupid thing that I done wrong.
Locked up in my head, knocked down, beaten, left for dead
With all those brilliant things I should have said.
I gotta get away, and find something to do
cause everything I hear, everything I see, reminds me of you.

Still counting the days Ive been without you 1, 2, 3, 4…
Still counting the days that you’ve been gone.
Day one, was no fun.
Day two, I hated you.
By day three I wish you’d come right back to me.
Day four, five and six, well I guess you just dont give a shit.
Day seven, this is hell. this is hell.
I gotta get away, and find something to do.
But everything I hear, everything I see, reminds me of you.

Still counting the days Ive been without you 1, 2, 3, 4…
Still counting the days that you’ve been gone.
Still counting the days since you left me. 1,2,3,4…
Still counting the days since you’ve been gone.

Yes. We were always there when you needed us, we were also there there when you din need us. I’m not gonna ask where you were when I needed you. You’re only too tied up in your own problems, now you dun even need us to be there for u anymore.

Thanks for the mail, anyway.